I’m so inspired tonight, it’s unfathomable to me. 

Using said inspiration, I wrote a new song. Which makes it the second one I’ve written this month. 

This song though, is one of- if not the- most important song I’ve written so far. And being honest, I cried while I wrote it. This, I have never done before. I’ve never been this emotional about a song. But it all makes sense to me. It’s the first song I wrote specifically for someone, about their situation, to help them. This someone is very close to me and I’m so thankful tonight I found the way to say just what I need to, to this person and to everyone just like them. 

It brought me to tears. Maybe it can continue to convey that emotion. I really hope so. Because that’s why I wrote it. To make people think and re-think. To console and comfort those inflicted. To shed some sort of light on one of the downfalls of our society. In the name of open-ness and peace. 

This is all a bit humorous, because leading up to the song flowing out of me I wasn’t in the mood for anything. All I could do was wander. Until I picked up my guitar. Que moment of clarity.

That’s yet another aspect I appreciate about music and songwriting. That a-ha moment you get when you know just what to say, how to say it and sing it. When mind coincides with heart. When it seems effortless. Like you (the “songwriter) don’t even feel like your doing any work. That’s what artists mean when they explain a piece or a thought, etc just simply, comes to them. That’s the a-ha moment of clarity. It’s a sort of rush. It’s both calming and thrilling at the same time. 

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My life is good right now. I’m writing songs that have much more meaning I ever imagined I could summon. I’m learning so much right now. About people around me and, in turn, about myself.

I honestly, earnestly feel like I’m living. Like I’m not missing anything. Like I’m no longer impatient, seeking more. Like I went from being a wave pool to a slight simmer. The restlessness is petering out. I’m more excepting of who I am today.

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This makes me content. And thankful. And glad.

And happy.

☮ + ♥

K

I’ve been writing A LOT. 

Last night I worked on three songs. This is unusual for me. Usually, I write one and move on to the next. But this time, I was writing two the same night and adding to an older one as well. 

I also usually blog my lyrics, but… I don’t know if I should anymore. I’ll blog the best lines here and there, but I have mixed feelings about posting complete song lyrics before the actual song’s even heard. 

I don’t know.

I can disclose the title’s though. They’re actually still under construction. But they’re all nearing the end. All the lyrics are written, I just need to sort them out a bit and figure out how to end them. There’s Love (Get Yours), which is about how love is more attainable than we think. There’s Stop and Stare, where I play with the senses and how they’re affected when you’re with someone special. And the one I’m adding to and finishing is called Shake Some Sense. It’s about losing a friend and how you wish you could, well, “shake some sense” into them.

All are based on my life, some a little more than others. But all contain my thoughts about their subjects.

I love songwriting. I don’t know what I’d do without it as my creative outlet. There’s a certain satisfaction when finishing a song or when finding the perfect words to describe a feeling or situation. In that moment, everything is right. Everything is… simple; effortless.

Now, if only I can get back to these types of feelings with producing. I think I had them once. Back when I was actually producing… I honestly feel very distant with my music in that sense. Not with songwriting- I have a great hold on that aspect of it- but my pesky album… It’s like it’s turned into this great big thing that has to be perfect, so to even begin feels very daunting. I mean, arguably the easiest part: recording the vocals, feels impossible. I do want it to be perfect. No. That is not the right perspective to have. I want to be proud of it. And I need to enjoy the process of creating it. Of recording the vocals, harmonies, guitar parts, strings and all extras that are needed… I need to immerse myself in it all. I feel like I haven’t done this in such a long time.

And now that I’m writing all these new songs, recording the old ones… just isn’t as fun. 

This is honestly how I feel. 

I know I’ll get back into it. I just need to take it one song at a time. 

I’m going to start rehearsing… tomorrow. Yeah. I’m thinking You’ll Never Know. We’re re-recording the vocals. They’re three years old now. Wow. 

This album has been a long time coming. But I’m glad I never rushed it. I gave myself the room I needed to grow with my songwriting, and my voice and with my instrument (guitar, cause piano… meh, lol). 

You must be dying to hear it. Cause I know I am. But I have to deal with every little thing before that. I hope you understand. 

I’ll be blogging (and photo blogging) the process. 

I’m excited. :) This is good!

Signing off post good personal pep talk, 

K

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Makes things better. 

Why am I writing happy love songs? 

I’m not happy or in love.

Started writing a song yesterday. It’s called “Security” for now. It has a lot of potential, but I’m stuck on it. 

I’ve written about five different second verses, but I don’t seem to be happy with any of them. 

Time to refrain and come back later. Think about the topic, think of how I truly feel about it deep down. Then I can write something.

What does security mean to you in your life?