I’m so inspired tonight, it’s unfathomable to me.
Using said inspiration, I wrote a new song. Which makes it the second one I’ve written this month.
This song though, is one of- if not the- most important song I’ve written so far. And being honest, I cried while I wrote it. This, I have never done before. I’ve never been this emotional about a song. But it all makes sense to me. It’s the first song I wrote specifically for someone, about their situation, to help them. This someone is very close to me and I’m so thankful tonight I found the way to say just what I need to, to this person and to everyone just like them.
It brought me to tears. Maybe it can continue to convey that emotion. I really hope so. Because that’s why I wrote it. To make people think and re-think. To console and comfort those inflicted. To shed some sort of light on one of the downfalls of our society. In the name of open-ness and peace.
This is all a bit humorous, because leading up to the song flowing out of me I wasn’t in the mood for anything. All I could do was wander. Until I picked up my guitar. Que moment of clarity.
That’s yet another aspect I appreciate about music and songwriting. That a-ha moment you get when you know just what to say, how to say it and sing it. When mind coincides with heart. When it seems effortless. Like you (the “songwriter) don’t even feel like your doing any work. That’s what artists mean when they explain a piece or a thought, etc just simply, comes to them. That’s the a-ha moment of clarity. It’s a sort of rush. It’s both calming and thrilling at the same time.
My life is good right now. I’m writing songs that have much more meaning I ever imagined I could summon. I’m learning so much right now. About people around me and, in turn, about myself.
I honestly, earnestly feel like I’m living. Like I’m not missing anything. Like I’m no longer impatient, seeking more. Like I went from being a wave pool to a slight simmer. The restlessness is petering out. I’m more excepting of who I am today.
This makes me content. And thankful. And glad.
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There is beauty in the breakdown.
It always helps.